I was relieved of my duties at my job and I could not be more happier. I know you are probably saying who gets happy about losing a job?! This chick!
I have been employed with a company for almost one year and over the past six months I have been very unhappy there. My position required that I create and set the tone for the facility and this required strenuous work physically and mentally.
I am a creative person so doing this was not the problem. The problem was when my creative ideas were considered “too much” by people who feared taking leaps but when I would tone down my creativity I was looked at like I did not do enough. Damned if you do damned if you do not type of atmosphere.
This weighed heavy on me for awhile and this contributed to the imbalance in my life. I dreaded going to work and it took a lot more self care to deal with the stresses. I started diffusing essential oils in my office, smudging and playing binaural beats to keep the good vibes. Due to my love for the people at this location I felt I owed them everything because after all it was my job to keep them happy. Can we really keep everyone happy? No.
I got the job to assist me with my business goals and pay the bills. Quitting seemed impossible as how would I cover the expenses that the job assisted me with? There was no way that I could leave. So many questions went through my head.
I recently had a family emergency that required that I take some time off and I shared this with my Supervisors. When I contacted them back to see if I could use my paid time off hours I then learned that I was terminated.
You would think my first response would be to feel upset but I felt a huge sense of relief in my being. In this moment the universe assured me that I am ok. I lost myself in my job and it imprisoned me as I took on the responsibility of making everyone else’s lives easier (whether they were grateful for me or not) while fighting to stay happy in my own personal life.
I relocated to my location to grow in my career and when I started this job it consumed me. I quit school and started giving my personal works the leftover energy from the day. Losing my job was not hurtful, it freed me. This new journey is one that I am excited about as I have more energy than ever to put towards my passion.
I do believe I would have continued to talk myself into staying but this was the end of the road. New beginnings are now here and I am embracing every moment!
If there is something that I learned from this place of employment it is that I am a special person and a great asset. How great of a job I did still did not disqualify me from being treated as though I was not appreciated. I had to learn how to speak up for myself. I had to stand firm in knowing my worth even when being told that my 100% still was not good enough.
There is something to be learned in everything. I am so appreciative of the lessons that I have learned at this location and I am forever grateful for the release. It is time to soar!
Are you working a job that stresses you?